Lonely and Christmas Eve Rant

Lonely
For awhile now I've been feeling very lonely-not in my marriage but everywhere else. I think that when I got married I alienated everyone else from my life. I was just too caught up in marriageville or something. But I realized that none of my friends call me anymore (you have to call people to receive calls) and even most of my family just assumes that I'm too busy and I don't get invited over to family dinners and stuff anymore. It sucks.
So Sunday a couple from the branch invited us over for game night on Thursday. I was thrilled! But Thursday's I work until close, so we got there about 1.5 hours after everyone else (I think 4 other couples were there). They'd already started a game and I just sat there, kind of observing. It was so weird to be in a room with people and just feel like I wasn't even there. I used to be so social, but the few times I even tried to join the conversation I would get all flustered and start blushing! I haven't done that since middle school. It's so strange to feel like you don't fit in with the people your age. Everyone around me is moving forward-starting their families-finishing school-working in their careers-something-and I feel like I'm standing absolutely still. It sucks.

Christmas Eve Rant
I don't remember my family ever doing anything on Christmas Eve. Never. Never-Ever-Ever. So when we were discussing what to do about Christmas it seemed very simple. His family always goes to Kansas City for Christmas Eve. So we'd do that, then spend Christmas day (well morning at least-David wasn't real willing to give up the whole day) with my family. So this is the year my family decides to do Christmas on Christmas Eve. My relatives from Oklahoma want to come up on Christmas Eve instead of waiting until the day of or a few days after to do Christmas. And I have to work until 2 and David has to work until 4. I was so upset when my mom told me I actually almost started crying. The first year David's whole family will be together for like 3 years or something. It's ridiculous and completely unfair. It freaking sucks. I'm having a bad day.